The Rides Of Life

isaac chan spins tunes as DJ Vicious Belly Get your dj name @ Quiz Me

posted by de @ 9:18 AM 0 comments

shoiks. on MC today. The art of chow kenging comes together with the ORD package. clear leave, clear off, clear mc. haha. you know the score, my fellow nsf men. =)

got whacked in the nutz by the ball while playing street soccer yesterday. I was half way to heaven..... but everything's ok today. keep a space for father's day celebration for me yah? ;) funny sia, randy asked me to 'knock one out' at home to see if everything's ok, see still can stand or not. hehaha.

after getting knocked afew times in the nutz already by various sports activities, i came to a conclusion of coming to the same level of pain.

getting knocked in the nutz = giving birth

hehe. the gals might beg to defer, but you have to feel getting knocked once. You'll practically 'see the light' sia. guys, do you feel my pain? hehe.

oh well, 2 more working days for me, and my ns life is well over. shoiks. have been waiting for the moment to come for too long. there's gonna be a briefing + confirmation on monday. Hope i can get my December off still and start work in Jan. I really need the break. Lotsa stuff happening in Dec.

posted by de @ 6:14 AM 0 comments

Wrote this song when i was feeling the lowest......
also this is C.O.T's latest song.


Abiding Me


Please tell me there’s a point to your never-ending lies and hypocrisy
I’m showing the common courtesy, while giving in to your persistent plea
You think different of me? Well pardon my stupidity,
Or am I just playing dumb, I think I’m going blind, silly me



Hello, goodbye my acquaintances
The mask of deception we all hide in
My sphere of influence from the people around,
Conforms me to the world which is not mine at all
Aggravation builds when talk is cheap,
Skeptical is me, with the thought of living emptily



The ONLY hope that I will see, is the light You shine on me

posted by de @ 12:25 PM 0 comments

went out with the guys for dinner at this jap joint. then went out for a drink at star bucks.

the question of the day i got was " are you ready for this?"

even though everything is so uncertain in my life right now, i'm so sure of this sweetie. i am....

posted by de @ 12:23 PM 0 comments

damn! just read on the papers yesterday that Civil Servants who sign up in Jan 04 onwards will get a pay cut of 20%!!! wah lao eh! i hope i dun get affected by it...... arghh!!! what a start to the next phase of my life......

oh well.....

posted by de @ 1:35 AM 0 comments

applied to be a paramedic. went for the interview for formalities' sake. next up is the confirmation, which is confirmed eversince i had the thought of signing on.

excited about it, but at the same time clouded with thoughts of apprehension. guess there are other stuff up in my head...... sigh

i'm so feeling the song Epiphany by Staind right now......
*sings* cuz it's always raining in my head.......

argh...... i'm condemned by anything that is not good......
or maybe i'm just thinking too much......
or just paranoid.......
all i want is to be loved and love in return.......
is that too much to ask? sigh, God help me.......

posted by de @ 6:45 AM 0 comments

my mind is clouded with thoughts of emptiness......
the love is all around, but none inside of me.......
hollow..... jaded...... is feels like it'll go on forever.......
but life is always full of it....... when will it ever stop?
this feeling, this emotion...... i feel numb and cold sometimes......

why have things gotta be so complicated?

some game? cruel one if it is......

i guess it's "hit him when he's up and running".......
to the floor i go..... filled with pain, sadness and hurt......

sometimes i dunno what to feel anymore.....
how? why? questions i can't answer......

the light in my tunnel is growing dimmer and dimmer......
God, i want to see Your light....... i'm reaching out, reaching out to You for help.
Hear my wounded heart cry out........ for comfort i need.....

happiness..... what is? back to the pits i go.....
it's getting deep, real deep..... sunken, the feel of no return......

what the f uck am i saying......... i'm losing it
i had enough...... so stay away......

posted by de @ 7:18 AM 0 comments

saturday was a blast. had a great time at the gig jason nah put together.

posted by de @ 7:06 AM 0 comments

how does one lose the love?

posted by de @ 7:02 AM 0 comments